PAIN
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Memories
It's 5:30 am on Sunday Jan. 2005. I woke up over an hour and cannot sleep. My little heart is breaking I feel as though it is about to explode, Yesterday I found out that the man i'm having my child for as moved in with his girlfriend. That has tourn my little heart into pieces. I ask God what have I done to deserve such a pain. I know that I have to move on and one day the pain will go away. Wayne as shown me repediately that i'm worth nothing to him its time I start showing him that i'm worth something.

I will survive this.

I'm actually reading oprah message board, i came across a message from another member, i think it's worth saving............


I've learned to pray. I've learned the importance of prayer. All this time on this planet and to have come to this. Nothing here to do with anything else but praying, asking for guidance and direction, assuming the protection in place, always, from day one on this earth, to pray, to talk to Creator, to meditate, to listen. Because when I stop praying, when I stop meditating, then the stuff of this place I curently call home takes over and I forget, momentarily, that all passes, that prayer will and does heal all.


"When you're going through hell, keep going."

Since i discovered that i was pregnant and wayne still didn't want to be with me....it hurts so badly there are days when i don't know how i can go on and find true love even as a single mom. I saw this from a reply to a single mother online and i think this advice is good.

"Aren't they your treasures? You can and will find a man that accepts the whole package. This is our generation. Your package is nothing new in our times.

Be hopeful and optimistic but do not dwell on an unstable man who cannot support and nourish your life.